too bad. he took a wrong decision. RIP friend.

It was a devastating news on 30th of March 2011, after I came back  from a competition when I found out a UNIMAS student committed suicide by jumped off into the campus lake.

Even worse, when I get to know that boy was an active student in campus. I have no idea what was his reason until he attempted to do so. A young guy with so much of talents ended up in a tragic way. It was a shocking news for all of us in campus. That was the first case of suicide in campus. 

Whatever it might be for him to do so, theres something that all of us need to know that life is so much more. Why am I saying it so, because all these burdens that we are carrying are just temporary and the permanent one is only true love (family, siblings, friends and life partner). What I always believe is that, God would never ever give you a trouble without knowing your capability to face it. HE (GOD) believes in us then we should prove to ourselves that we can do. When we fail to do so, its okay we have tried our level best. We should learn from our mistake so that history won't repeat.

Hope his soul will be rest in peace. May god bless you, my friend.

Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

YESH! I came back from K.K for 6th Debate Borneo Championship. All I can say, I had a great time with my friends throughout the trip! We went there on 24th of March and came back to Kuching on 30th of March. Almost a week I assume. On the first day we arrived in UMS (Universiti Malaysia Sabah), I fell into a tiny drain which I couldn't see in the dark. I had bruises on my legs. Then, I need to attend for the adjudication test with a mock debate. While carrying that pain, I need to concentrate for the test and pretend that I'm strong *which I'm not*. I had this nervous whether I will be as an adjudicator or ended up as a trainee. Or even worse being totally rejected. I did all I can do and I prayed whatever it could be, I did my level best.

Following day, I scored an A grade! Beyond my expectation! Seriously, I felt 'Nah, not bad also'. LOL. Then throughout five preliminary rounds, I was chairing. I know, Borneo Cup isn't a big deal but personally for me, it is! especially who had just practiced for twice being as an adjudicator. When I thought my name was not in the list for quater-finals, I felt upset but I was glad because I have no burden to carry on! :P

Then, on the third day they announced my name for quater-finals adjudication. Surprised. Seriously. On my way, to room for adjudication I almost fell again!! Hate it! And it was really funny for the way I almost fell. Like a drunken woman only :P

Unimas team broke until quater-finals only. They are capable to go further but somehow they couldn't. Its okay, at least they have made it! Congrats!

Now, about this beautiful Sabah! We stayed in a lodge at Gaya Street. The place is really awesome and clean! Friendly people! Oh god, theres everything that you need! Though its an old town yet there are new buildings and some are still under construction. We also went to 1Borneo Hyper mall. Oh man! That building has everything, especially all kind of brands and food varieties! Sabah, is a MUST visit place. :)

Tiring trip but the fun, no one can ever beat it! with double heart-attack game card! :)

Everyday I'm Shuffling!

My favourite song of this month! Party Rock Anthem!

Love the shuffling part and the dancers are cool!

Enjoy watching this music video. :)

just too many

For the past few days, I'm just whining over everything that annoyed me. Even a little harsh word from people could push me to the maximum. I wonder PMS could be a reason but the thing is that usually during pre-PMS I would be crying or just keep myself quiet. Perhaps, hormone changes in my body and mind.

I dislike whining because I feel I would make myself look childish but then I had no control of it. LOL. I guess people around me have to bear with me.

Yahoo! Today I will be going to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah after 12 years! I can't wait to see how Sabah has changed. Actually, I'm going there on purpose - Borneo Cup Debate. Hoping our UNIMAS team would break a record and win the Borneo Cup! All the best y'all! :)

And yeah I'm going to celebrate my friend's (Yoke Wah) birthday (25.3.2011- one day earlier than the actual date) with other friends before I leave to Sabah. I have planned a dinner and a box of cupcakes to surprise her. Hope everything goes well. :)

Let me see, once I'm back from Sabah I'm going to get packed with incomplete tasks. Hope I could make it! God, please help me! :)

Okay, I need to continue my logbook report. Good night! Sweet dreams! :)

March : having many irons in the fire

Dear friends,

I may not be a friend as how I used to be.

Like hanging out and spend time together where the only word for it was FUN!

But things are too many for me to carry on since I came back to campus after Chinese New Year break.

Some of my friends are complaining to me, 'Yeah lady, you are too busy even for a cup of coffee'

Then what am I suppose to answer for that sarcastic question? Of course, it would be a YES word from me.

All I need right now is a friend to understand me. And I even showed my face full of tense to my best friend. But she understood me and my pressure.

Friends, I know you all are needing me but at current situation I can't even help myself. I'm sorry.

Project, Assignments, Tests, College events and Debate trainings fully occupied my current life schedule.

Wake up --> Classes --> Discussion/Training/Meeting --> Works --> Sleep

Fully packed life!

I'm glad, my family could understand that and my parents always have been there to give me moral supports. Love 'em! And actually I'm having homesick but its okay I will get rid of it. :)

At a point, I felt I'm no good at all but I realised I've proven myself and to everyone about my capability.

So, I don't need for one more chance but I will strive for the best if I had one.

What I believe, theres always someone whos greater than me and that motivates me to be a better person.

No one ever won a chess match by making only forward moves. Just like in life, sometimes we have to move backward to take a better step forward.

Beautiful quote, isn't it? :)

Have great days ahead, my beloved friends and everyone!

lappy gone wild!

Oh God.. All I did was to clean up the data in my Local Disk C and I deleted some of Windows files. And I restarted my lappy after I did my progression report in half way at 3a.m. I decided to continue my report at 7a.m. and DARN!! It only appears as 'BOOT  MGR is compressed and press Ctrl + Alt +Del'. This is not what I wanted early in the morning of Valentine Day!

I called my friend and I would proudly say that he is an IT pro! Then he asked me to bring my lappy to class and   will figure it out on how to retrieve my data on desktop. I brought it and my other guy friends came and helped me. I was touched for their attitude. You guys are awesome. I gave it to my friend and let him handle the rest.

So yes, now I'm without my lappy!! Oh no! Without English series and songs for two days?? I will go crazy trust me! arghhh!

And now, I'm in my campus library. Alone. Yes. Not many people in here. Quiet. Just Nice.

Happy V-day!

Its just another Monday for me. Nothing special. Assignments, project report and paper works are enough to make my life miserable.

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to all of you! Good day!