just a thought

Regardless, I still believe in true love.

goodbye 2011 and let's welcome 2012

*blows the dust off the computer*

I know it has been a while since I've updated my blog and it is sad for me to let my blog to be abandoned for more than a month.

A slow internet connection though paying up the bill at right time plus with my due dates of my assignments and project reports made me no time for blogging.

I checked my calendar today and it is 31st of December 2011. On next day, it will be a new day of a new month in a new year; 1st of January 2012. Time flies really fast despite I'm dawdling with my life. I still remember when I was in my teenage life, I always wonder how is life going to be when I'm into my 20's.

Now, I'm getting so worried when I realised that I'm going turn into 24 soon. Can I stay young with my adolescent look? I know I'm asking for too much :P

Looking back for what I've went through for this year, tells me how much I've changed myself. I'm surprised with people who felt good with my words and quotes. There is one thing, they might have not seen it; there will be a moment even for the strongest person to drop tears. I have my own moments too.

Yes, when my closed one told me that she is surprised how people shared their problems with me and how I struggle to find solutions for them. Yet, I'm so weak and fragile inside. When I reminisced the moment how strongly I hold my tears when I walked away and now I smiled on how strong I was. I questioned myself for a thousand times, why am I so sensitive when it comes to emotions? Why the caring and loving sense should be in me? Why I can't be like some other people who don't even bothered about others surround them? Why I can't isolate myself from people? Why I can't stay alone? too many whys in my mind. 

But there is only an answer; this is who I am.

Then I realised, I have good stuffs where others couldn't have in them. I'm lucky! I could share the love with others. There is a beauty about love. Let the deserved ones know how to appreciate it and those who do not care about it, let God bless them! :)

In this second half of this year, I resigned from organisations and it is time for others to handle. I'm happy and satisfied for what I have done. I don't care for what others think about that. I got the job and I did my best. Of course, I thank my different cliques who always have been there and gave each other moral supports. And I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone throughout the years. Love you all!

About friendships that I don't give a damn, you caused it! I can't do anything on that. That's me. I will try my best and I put all my efforts to save a friendship regardless the scars. Yet, if you failed to recognize the value? Goodbye! :)

Certainly, this year taught me so many lessons. It is important not letting the same mistake to repeat. If it is repeating then it is your fault. No point of pointing finger to others.

And I'm glad when I have people surround me who care about me and always put a smile on my face through jokes and stories. Of course, my family members who always motivate and love me despite the long distance. Cheers to Skype and 3G phone calls :)

Next year is going to be a tough one with my final year project part 2. I need to start with project on software part soon. Good luck to my friends who are doing final year project.

May all good things be yours forever. May this year brings more happiness and calmness to your life. All the best!

                                              

                                               

With lots of love,

Prema