an angel's touch

Seriously, I'm messed up for my FINAL EXAM! Some of the subjects I don''t even know what I've learned until last night. I made my effort to ask a friend of mine and gladly she volunteered to help me who doesn't know anything. We shared and discussed. I felt better. At least, I know something about my subjects. Thanks Herda :)

procrastination is my middle name!

I wasted my STUDY WEEK!! I'm sure that I'm gonna screw up my FINAL EXAM for this semester!

whatthehellamidoing?

im.gonna.screw.up.my.exam!

Oh god! I couldn't imagine how am i gonna face my last 3 papers in 2 days! two papers in one day and then the last paper will be on the following day....

uwaaaaaaaaaaa!!  (T.T)

Dear GOD, please save me....
for once again....

life lessons of my 6th sem

Well, now is the study week of my 6th semester. For most of my friends, this semester will be their final semester. But I still have two more semesters to go. This semester is definitely the toughest semester ever since I've came to UNIMAS.

Conflicts were everywhere.

EXPECTATIONS and CHANGES.

I learned I should not always stay in comfort zone. I have to come out from the circle so that I can accept the changes and least expect.

The greatest lesson I've learned is that people change without any degree. We can never measure their changes. It was hard for me to accept it. 

I learned everyone is not the same as me. People think and act with different frequency. I had problem to adjust myself to be flexible. I'm glad at least I had the opportunity to see human behaviour.

I should give myself a chance to learn. I know I will never understand human beings. I should regret but I can't harp on it. Life is all about moving on and live the present. But if I never learn the lesson then the history will repeat.

I should love myself more than anything else. May be that could be a reason for me to sleep longer. I feel secured if I close my eyes and sleep. As though I've escaped from the real world and theres nothing for me to worry about. 

I stay positive no matter how hard it may seem to be, but at certain point I failed to be a positive person. I was surprised to know my inspirational quotes and positive words in my FB profile have inspired so many friends. I'm happy because at least I've cheered someone and tell them that life is so much more.

I've hurt people around me especially the ones stood beside me when I was facing tough moments. Thank you and love you all. Sometimes, I never mean to hurt anyone and I was kinda lost in my own world.

I realised no matter how many people you could have met and be there for you for quite sometimes could eventually leave you all alone. And at that time, you would be sitting alone and cry out loudly but no one will be there for you anymore. When you realised it, thats the hardest part in your life because you have to stand by your own as if both of your legs are broken. Some people may just passed by and see you struggling. You can't scream for help but no one is bothered to give you a hand. Trust me, after you managed to stand then you will have the guts that you never had before. And no one could shake you even for an inch.

Being bold is very essential to face the real world. Or else, you will be sweep away as dust.

BE A MAN!

Oh come on! BE A MAN to voice out! Don't be such a coward by whispering your opinion to a girl and ask her to voice out your opinion!?

That day, when this fellow tried to insult me by saying my question was totally irrelevant. He got the best shot from me for the first time. I stood up for myself and answered him 'Look, you don't have to be rude to answer me and be polite in answering people!'. He pouted. Then, someone else said he is having his monthly period. So what? I don't give a damn bout it. What! Is he having period for his whole life by acting in a such way?

Seriously, I felt to tell right at his face 'Be a man and stop acting like a little girl for god sake!'.

too bad. he took a wrong decision. RIP friend.

It was a devastating news on 30th of March 2011, after I came back  from a competition when I found out a UNIMAS student committed suicide by jumped off into the campus lake.

Even worse, when I get to know that boy was an active student in campus. I have no idea what was his reason until he attempted to do so. A young guy with so much of talents ended up in a tragic way. It was a shocking news for all of us in campus. That was the first case of suicide in campus. 

Whatever it might be for him to do so, theres something that all of us need to know that life is so much more. Why am I saying it so, because all these burdens that we are carrying are just temporary and the permanent one is only true love (family, siblings, friends and life partner). What I always believe is that, God would never ever give you a trouble without knowing your capability to face it. HE (GOD) believes in us then we should prove to ourselves that we can do. When we fail to do so, its okay we have tried our level best. We should learn from our mistake so that history won't repeat.

Hope his soul will be rest in peace. May god bless you, my friend.