I'm Not Giving Up

I was scratching my head on how shall I write this post after months I didn't post anything on my blog. Whether I should start with reviews on great movies of this year that I've watched like Underworld Awakening, This Means War, Hunger Games, Titanic in 3D and Battleship or with my deep down emotion which is unstable yet I'm trying to motivate myself?

Oh my dear, April.. Y U NO NICE TO ME? *meme version*

This month, I'm facing the tough moments in my life. Too many troubles and problems pilling up in my life without any warning sign! I was keep telling to myself, things will get better eventually. Yet, things are so challenging. 

I'm mentally weak and discouraged. I felt every time I climbed up the stairs, there is something that keep pushing me down. I thought I've reached the giving up line and no longer I could endure it. Thank God, my mum is always there for me to push me and pull me up. She keep motivates me despite the far distance between us. She is not giving up on me. She reminded me, how strong I'm in facing tough life.

At least, at this very moment... I opened my eyes to notice how eagerly my competitors and enemies are waiting for me to fall far. Who to trust? No one but the Almighty and me. This is the moment, for me to get up my ass and face it. I'm not giving up myself. I will stand still to see how badly life is going to treat me. This is my final semester. I will make it!

A real winner never quits and a champion will always get up no matter how many times being pushed down.

Fear Not. What is not real, never was and never will be. What is real, always was and cannot be destroyed.

- Bhagavad Gita.

maths 1 exam

yes at this very moment, I'm sad... very sad than any moment I was in..

I had my first exam for this semester which is Engineering Mathematics 1 and I actually sat twice for that subject.. The reason for the second time is that to repair my previous grade.

I did all the exercises and I'm always worried with that subject. I have no idea because of what. I'm just traumatized with that particular Maths. I can do any other level of Maths except for that basic one.

I'm disappointed with myself. I'm really upset when I couldn't answer well for most of the questions. I controlled my tears and tried to stay cool.

But it didn't last long until my close friends figure it out.

I did my best for it. Let God handle the rest of it.

3 more papers to go to end this semester.

Dear lady luck, please be with me..

true friendship

do you know when is worth living?

when you realised you're surrounded with people who are always there for you,

no matter during happiness or sadness that you're going through..

the loved ones - your family and true friends...

you know what?

I never walk alone...

at this moment, I could see who are my true friends... 

friends that I never asked for...

I'm lucky to have these angels around me and thank you, God.

"true friends are the people who are there for you unconditionally. they are the people who never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are.

they are the people worth living for"