unexplained dilemma

Last month, most of my batch mates graduated with a scroll and I saw a relieve sign on their faces. The joy and the celebration upon their graduation was great. I wondered how it would be when it comes to my turn. We will see later.

Then came across along with Deepavali celebration with my lovely family last month which was on 26th of October. Spent a whole week with them and I enjoyed my mum's cooking especially spicy food named curry! I'm a curry lover and I would enjoy spicy dish. 

The koolam I designed by myself for this year Deepavali

Then, I realized all my works are halt and need to get all done in a week which includes my very first test for this semester; Mathematics 1. I did my best but after the test I was disappointed with my careless mistake. It's okay. Just move on and do better in upcoming tests.

Somehow, I couldn't focus in my life. I couldn't explain to myself on what I really want. Though, I may have getting better at some point but still there is something that really bothers me.

I don't know what I want. But certainly, I know what is my purpose. I came here to get a degree certificate. Hence, I should stay focus on studies for now.

The best song that would suit me, It Ends Tonight by All American Rejects. I used to listen this song back to year 2007 and the lyrics somehow explain well on what I really into.

Your subtleties, they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all

And all the wants and all the needs
All I don't want to need at all

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone

A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can explain

Lady Gaga's Quote♥

Some women choose to follow men,

some women choose to follow their dreams.

If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake 

up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore!♥

I'm better off alone

first month of final year to be break

It has been such a long time since I've updated my live journal in here after my early days of Industrial Training.

Industrial training ended in a good way and I learnt a lot through the training. Glad to meet up good people who have taught me more on working life and knowledge. A person like me who is studying Electronics yet no enthusiasm in networking is a sad thing! My supervisor inculcated the interest in me by giving me opportunities to do hands-on stuffs *despite the risks*. And now guess what? I'm taking networking topic for my final year project under my favourite lecturer supervision! :)

Life is all about risk, isn't it?

Well, I'm back in Kuching for about one month and kinda complicated. I decided to repair a subject from my first year first semester subject - MATHEMATICS 1! I felt I've taken a huge risk in my life - current time! Even worse, one of the slots is clashing with my core subject slot. It seriously put me down. I AM DOWN! For your info, I didn't do well for the subject previously so I still do have the trauma. I AM TRAUMATIZED! My lecturer is an understanding person and he let me to skip the first slot. But for the past two weeks, he canceled his second slot and I missed three weeks of lesson COMPLETELY! 

So, now I'm depressed and I don't know what to do besides my plan to meet him up on Monday. Hope all goes well for me.

FYP which stands for Final Year Project, I've not started to read journals and articles for serious. I mean I just lingering around. NO SERIOUSNESS IN ME! WHY?? I wonder that too. My lecturer has high hope on me.

'PREM, COME ON!' *screams!*

My life for now full of twists and turns. Need air to gasp! 

#QuoteOfTheDay

May the sun always shine on your windowpane; May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain; May the hand of a friend always be near you; May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.



Irish Blessing

industrial training

Now, I'm in my second week of industrial training. My only word for my industrial training is AWESOME! The people, the working environment and the best of all is the KLIA view from the control tower. I'm glad for being here though at first I was worried that I will be all alone for my practical.

For the fact, I can't describe my real feeling when I was on top of the control tower. The highest level would be floor 29 for the air traffic controller (ATC) room *which is known as VCR (Visual Control Room)*. I was standing in that room while looking at the airport to see the flights (departing and landing). For a moment, I felt so grateful to GOD for this opportunity. Feeling so lucky!

Despite that wonderful view, I still need to learn a lot and to understand how systems work in here *which is pretty tough* *sigh* I'm trying my level best to catch up. 

Its all about communication systems. Almost 12 different systems this corp is handling. 

I will upload the photos of view soon! 

p/s : when I'm free! ;)

I'm done with my THIRD YEAR!

Finally, I have done my exam for this semester. I can conclude I have finished my third year and left one more year to go.