true friendship

do you know when is worth living?

when you realised you're surrounded with people who are always there for you,

no matter during happiness or sadness that you're going through..

the loved ones - your family and true friends...

you know what?

I never walk alone...

at this moment, I could see who are my true friends... 

friends that I never asked for...

I'm lucky to have these angels around me and thank you, God.

"true friends are the people who are there for you unconditionally. they are the people who never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are.

they are the people worth living for"

just a thought

Regardless, I still believe in true love.

goodbye 2011 and let's welcome 2012

*blows the dust off the computer*

I know it has been a while since I've updated my blog and it is sad for me to let my blog to be abandoned for more than a month.

A slow internet connection though paying up the bill at right time plus with my due dates of my assignments and project reports made me no time for blogging.

I checked my calendar today and it is 31st of December 2011. On next day, it will be a new day of a new month in a new year; 1st of January 2012. Time flies really fast despite I'm dawdling with my life. I still remember when I was in my teenage life, I always wonder how is life going to be when I'm into my 20's.

Now, I'm getting so worried when I realised that I'm going turn into 24 soon. Can I stay young with my adolescent look? I know I'm asking for too much :P

Looking back for what I've went through for this year, tells me how much I've changed myself. I'm surprised with people who felt good with my words and quotes. There is one thing, they might have not seen it; there will be a moment even for the strongest person to drop tears. I have my own moments too.

Yes, when my closed one told me that she is surprised how people shared their problems with me and how I struggle to find solutions for them. Yet, I'm so weak and fragile inside. When I reminisced the moment how strongly I hold my tears when I walked away and now I smiled on how strong I was. I questioned myself for a thousand times, why am I so sensitive when it comes to emotions? Why the caring and loving sense should be in me? Why I can't be like some other people who don't even bothered about others surround them? Why I can't isolate myself from people? Why I can't stay alone? too many whys in my mind. 

But there is only an answer; this is who I am.

Then I realised, I have good stuffs where others couldn't have in them. I'm lucky! I could share the love with others. There is a beauty about love. Let the deserved ones know how to appreciate it and those who do not care about it, let God bless them! :)

In this second half of this year, I resigned from organisations and it is time for others to handle. I'm happy and satisfied for what I have done. I don't care for what others think about that. I got the job and I did my best. Of course, I thank my different cliques who always have been there and gave each other moral supports. And I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone throughout the years. Love you all!

About friendships that I don't give a damn, you caused it! I can't do anything on that. That's me. I will try my best and I put all my efforts to save a friendship regardless the scars. Yet, if you failed to recognize the value? Goodbye! :)

Certainly, this year taught me so many lessons. It is important not letting the same mistake to repeat. If it is repeating then it is your fault. No point of pointing finger to others.

And I'm glad when I have people surround me who care about me and always put a smile on my face through jokes and stories. Of course, my family members who always motivate and love me despite the long distance. Cheers to Skype and 3G phone calls :)

Next year is going to be a tough one with my final year project part 2. I need to start with project on software part soon. Good luck to my friends who are doing final year project.

May all good things be yours forever. May this year brings more happiness and calmness to your life. All the best!

                                              

                                               

With lots of love,

Prema 

unexplained dilemma

Last month, most of my batch mates graduated with a scroll and I saw a relieve sign on their faces. The joy and the celebration upon their graduation was great. I wondered how it would be when it comes to my turn. We will see later.

Then came across along with Deepavali celebration with my lovely family last month which was on 26th of October. Spent a whole week with them and I enjoyed my mum's cooking especially spicy food named curry! I'm a curry lover and I would enjoy spicy dish. 

The koolam I designed by myself for this year Deepavali

Then, I realized all my works are halt and need to get all done in a week which includes my very first test for this semester; Mathematics 1. I did my best but after the test I was disappointed with my careless mistake. It's okay. Just move on and do better in upcoming tests.

Somehow, I couldn't focus in my life. I couldn't explain to myself on what I really want. Though, I may have getting better at some point but still there is something that really bothers me.

I don't know what I want. But certainly, I know what is my purpose. I came here to get a degree certificate. Hence, I should stay focus on studies for now.

The best song that would suit me, It Ends Tonight by All American Rejects. I used to listen this song back to year 2007 and the lyrics somehow explain well on what I really into.

Your subtleties, they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all

And all the wants and all the needs
All I don't want to need at all

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone

A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can explain

Lady Gaga's Quote♥

Some women choose to follow men,

some women choose to follow their dreams.

If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake 

up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore!♥

I'm better off alone

first month of final year to be break

It has been such a long time since I've updated my live journal in here after my early days of Industrial Training.

Industrial training ended in a good way and I learnt a lot through the training. Glad to meet up good people who have taught me more on working life and knowledge. A person like me who is studying Electronics yet no enthusiasm in networking is a sad thing! My supervisor inculcated the interest in me by giving me opportunities to do hands-on stuffs *despite the risks*. And now guess what? I'm taking networking topic for my final year project under my favourite lecturer supervision! :)

Life is all about risk, isn't it?

Well, I'm back in Kuching for about one month and kinda complicated. I decided to repair a subject from my first year first semester subject - MATHEMATICS 1! I felt I've taken a huge risk in my life - current time! Even worse, one of the slots is clashing with my core subject slot. It seriously put me down. I AM DOWN! For your info, I didn't do well for the subject previously so I still do have the trauma. I AM TRAUMATIZED! My lecturer is an understanding person and he let me to skip the first slot. But for the past two weeks, he canceled his second slot and I missed three weeks of lesson COMPLETELY! 

So, now I'm depressed and I don't know what to do besides my plan to meet him up on Monday. Hope all goes well for me.

FYP which stands for Final Year Project, I've not started to read journals and articles for serious. I mean I just lingering around. NO SERIOUSNESS IN ME! WHY?? I wonder that too. My lecturer has high hope on me.

'PREM, COME ON!' *screams!*

My life for now full of twists and turns. Need air to gasp!